2/27/2013

unbeaten by rain - Opening Reception

Thank you Johnny Chan for documenting the opening night. Thank you Amy Ka Man Tan for saying "yes" to join the performance. And biiiiiig thank you to my family and friends for your support along the way. I couldn't have done it without you guys!!!! Gabe, Ren, you are mine!!!!!! LOVE ru 




2/04/2013

unbeaten by rain / solo art exhibition by Haruka Ostley




I just realized my last blog entry was almost a year ago. Since my son was born, I've been working intensely to create this exhibition. And now, here it is... after one year,

unbeaten by rain , "amenimo makezu", one of the most read and memorized poems in Japan, grounded me through my pregnancy. The poem carries a sense of stillness, peace, humility and unconditional love, which kept me going through the uncertainty of bringing new life to the world. Discovering the back story of this poem led me to create this body of work. As I enjoy the every day growth of my first child, I am once again looking around at my surroundings with fresh new eyes and taking deep breaths. Inhaling... and exhaling colors to my canvas.     

Haruka Ostley




2/06/2012

Waiting...

waiting...
waiting...
... I didn't know it was this hard to wait for something to happen. Learning to be calm, be peaceful, and be patient...


2/03/2012

9ヶ月 ー 9 months



2011年、5月に妊娠がわかって、今日、明日にも産まれそうな我が子を思い、時を振り返ってみる。長かったようであっという間だったこの時間ももうすぐ終わりかと思うとちょっと寂しい感じもする。去年はいろんな意味で自分達の夢を叶えた年だったから妊娠が分かった時はとっても嬉しかった。”Gabe, you will be a father...” Daddyに伝えた初めての知らせだよ。二人で長い間見つめ合って、ハグしたのを覚えてる。赤ちゃんが欲しいねって話してたことがとうとう現実になるんだって、不思議と不安がなくて信じられない喜びと期待でいっぱいになったよね。この9ヶ月の間は自分にとって今までの人生や美術、演劇の世界で頑張れた自分を見つめ直し、そして時間をかけて感謝するいい時をすごせたと思う。ありがとう。

Our baby boy is coming out in any minutes now. Today... or tomorrow? Instead of being too anxious, I thought it is a good time for me to look back my last 9 months with him in my tummy. I am so ready, yet a little sad that soon I won't be able to feel him side of my stomach.

We found out about my pregnancy in May 2011 at home. The year 2011 was a magical year for both me and Gabe. As an artist / creator, we have done so many different projects, and last year, for the first time we felt that we are living the life we dreamed when we were little. We felt so satisfied with our creative freedom, friends, achievements, quality of work etc... In all aspects, there are many things to improve, yet we felt so ready to share with a new member in our life.

"Gabe, you will be a father...” This was the first thing I told Gabe, when we discovered about our baby. We were just staring at each other for a long time, and hugged so tightly. That was the moment we both felt Wow... now everything we were just talking, wishing, hoping became REALITY!! For some reasons, there were no fear or anxiety. We felt so content and peaceful.

It was an amazing 9 months for me to re-think about my art/theater making, and what I want in my work, in my life. But most of all, I had a great time appreciating what I have. Thank you for this amazing time my little new buddy!







Heart beat



妊娠2ヶ月くらいだった頃、はじめてお腹の赤ちゃんの心臓の音を聞いた。その心臓のリズムの早さに驚きジーンときた。こんなにリズム早く小さいのに力強く動いているのかと思うと不思議な気持ちになった。生命ってすごいな。9ヶ月間もこの早さで大丈夫なのかと心配にさえなった。笑) 頑張っているんだな。

It was around two months in my pregnancy, I heard the baby's heartbeats for the first time. It was so incredible. It was almost twice as faster than our heart beats. The babies have such a small tiny body yet, their heartbeats were so strong and fast. I felt the power of LIFE. I remember almost wanted to warn him, "Hey my little buddy, you still have 9 months to go! Slow down a little! " :))